Today will Never come again. 

Be a blessing. Be a friend. Encourage someone.

Take time to care. Let your words heal, and not wound.

Today will Never come again.

~*~*~*~*~

 

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I’d only seen her once or twice, the woman who lived next door. From a distance, I could read pain in her face and a life that has been too tough and left too many scars. Sometimes, when we passed her on our road, it seemed like she was in another world, a world created by drugs and alcohol and abuse. When I waved, sometimes all I got was a blank stare, sometimes she never even looked.

But she caught at my heart, and I wondered what her story was and if she had anyone to care what path she took.

Then she went away. Left in her run down brown car, and only came back once in a while to pick up a cat or to walk around the house once or twice. I thought she’d moved away and no one lived there anymore. I guess they don’t.

But two days ago, I was walking up the hill to the mailbox when I saw her standing in the rain. For the first time, she waved when she saw me, and when I walked by started to talk. It was pouring rain, and she looked a little strange. It is hard to know how much to risk with a stranger, but that moment, I knew I had to stop.
Her keys were locked in her trunk, and no amount of pushing or prying on either of our parts could budge the lock or pick it open. And while I tried to pick the lock, she stood beside me and poured out some of her heart. Looking into her face, I saw the same scars that I’d seen at a distance. I saw the hard lines and yet I saw beautiful blue eyes that craved love. I saw a broken, lonely woman who needed someone to care enough to stop. She needed someone to listen.

I didn’t get the trunk open. I didn’t talk about my LORD and Savior. I didn’t pray with her, but I prayed for her, every moment that I stood there. I didn’t even catch her name.

But I caught a little glimpse of her heart. Behind all those layers, she wasn’t so different from me. Why do we hesitate so much to reach out and touch? Why are we so afraid to listen and to love?

I walked home wet and with a full heart. Wishing I could do more, wondering if I did enough, praying that what I could not do, God would keep doing.

 

I may not see her again, but I will remember her eyes for a long time. I’ll remember the fragment of her heart that I saw. I will remember that sometimes, touching the world starts with something as small as reaching out to the lonely woman who use to live next door. I’ll remember that sometimes, the greatest sermons aren’t preached, but acted.

Every day I pray that God will use my little bit of life to be a blessing. Every day, I ask Him to keep me humble, and to let me see the world through His eyes. Often, I am afraid of what He asks me to stop for. It cuts close to my heart, and sometimes causes me pain. But through the pain, I see a little more clearly what Love is, and how much I need this Love. I don’t have it on my own.

So, I’ll think of her, and remember that only through loving and touching can we reach the World. And only by His grace can my feeble efforts to love be worth anything…anything at all.

I feel quite sure if I did my best
I could maybe impress you
With tender words and a harmony
A clever rhyme or two.
But if all I’ve done in the time we’ve shared
Is turn your eyes on me
Then I’ve failed at what I’ve been called to do
……..

 

Will you love Jesus more
When we go our different ways
When this moment is a memory
Will you remember His face
Will you look back and realize
You sensed His love more than you did before
I’d pray for nothing less
Than for you to love Jesus more

 

May this always be THE reason I keep writing.

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.
~ LEO BUSCAGLIA

 

This makes my heart ache a little because it is so true. How many times to we get so wrapped up in our own lives that we neglect all of these things, these simple, small things, that have enough power in each one of them to make the amazing difference of helping someone find their path again?

This is why I’m praying that God will make me more conscious and more aware of each one of these things in my life. If this is all that I ever have the chance to do, I will feel that my life was not in vain.

Life is like sandpaper.

Sometimes the grit feels too strong, too harsh against my fears and against my selfishness.

Sometimes reality rubs harshly against my dreams—our dreams—and makes them start to feel as if they were never meant to be.

Sometimes it makes me afraid, the way life changes so quickly and yet so painfully slow all at the same time.

But the grit that shapes, polishes. It makes rough things smooth. It makes tarnish into shine. It turns an ordinary stone, an ordinary life into something far more beautiful than anyone could have ever imagined.

So I learn to welcome the grit, to find joy in each moment of this journey, to sing when it isn’t easy, to believe that this is the means that will bring me closer to what I want more than anything, to be more like Him.

 

written as a part of five minute friday …and I forgot to hit the post button yesterday. oops.

One of my goals this year is to smile more, and I’ve been sharing quotes and thoughts about smiling every so often.

Today, I stumbled across this little video. This is what love is and it made me cry and smile all at once.

P.S I don’t know much about operation: smile itself, and don’t necessarily endorse it as a valid charity out of lack of experience and knowledge, but the heart behind this video is beautiful and well worth the time it takes to watch.

 

In the middle of what felt like the end of all that I had hoped for, He asked me to believe that the broken pieces could one day be a masterpiece.

When my plans fail,  He reminds me that I know His plans are perfect.

When the fears and unknowns of the future feel overwhelming and dark, He asks me trust that He is still Jehovah Jireh.

When I think I need answers, when I think that I must know it all know, He asks me to wait. To trust.

Trust or fear-the choice is mine.

But patiently and gently, using the moments of this life is an opportunity to teach me what it means to really trust Him.

Sometimes I’m ashamed at how easy it is for me to forget.

I get flustered by the apparent perpetual bad choices that one who ought to know better keeps making.

I try to build a wall to protect my heart from more pain as someone I care about seems to walk farther and farther away.

I try not to care.

But then, I remember.

Just about the time I feel like giving up, just when I feel like nothing makes any difference, I remember how tenderly He has dealt with all my shortcomings. How often He has shown me the power of unconditional love.

And so I keep coming back, and asking Him to make my heart tender, and to teach me how to love and never give up.

 

written for five minute friday

“Though I may not

calm the storms around you…

 

 

and though this life is hard

Know that I will always give you perfect peace”

…..

and you’ll never be alone.

hope

 

so just keep holding on.

blog.beautifulsong.com-josephaddison

 

I love smiles.

When I fell in love with Scott, one thing I fell in love with was his beautiful smile. When I am out and about, I look for people who have faces that smile. When I am feeling a little stressed, or a little sad, a smile can go a long ways to making me feel better. I think I smile often, but when you think about the power of something so small as a smile, I’ve been realizing that I just don’t smile near enough.

One of my goals in 2012 is to smile more.  I want to make the most of the little abilities and little opportunities that I’ve been given. I may not have a big voice that can be heard by many. I may not have a strong enough pen to write words that will inspire the world to find more beauty. But I can smile. And I believe, as small as a smile may be, that we may never know the end of the journey of a single smile.

In the next few weeks and months, I think I’ll start sharing some of the quotes and poems in my collection of smiles. I think you’ll enjoy them as much as I do.