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Today is Mother’s day. It is the day that I take a moment to sit back and celebrate the amazing miracle of new life, and the way that it can change a woman into a mother over night. It is the day that I rejoice with my mommy friends, the day that I thank God for my own mother’s love and devotion.

But today, I think of you.

There’s so many things I don’t know right now. Like the color of your skin, or the way you’ll smile. I wonder if you’ll have blue eyes, or if they could be brown, like mine. I wonder if your hair will have curls in it, or if it will be smooth and silky and soft. I wonder what your name will be, and if you’ll be a boy or a girl.

Will you like to be rocked and will you feel loved when I sing to you? Would you grow up to be a bookworm and writer? Would you be fascinated with electronics and tools? Maybe you’ll like engine grease and be driven to figure out what makes things tick. Perhaps you’ll like baking. I hope you’d like to feel the grass on your bare feet and to watch birds build their nests and how ants live in the world beneath our feet. Most of all I hope you’d learn to love the One who made all things, who made you to be the perfect little person I know you would be one day.

Often, I wonder if I’ll ever get a chance to feel you flutter beneath my heart. If I’ll get to watch you grow, if our voices will be the first you ever hear. More often, I wonder if a stranger will put you in our arms, and when we’ll finally get to meet you.

But in the end, those things aren’t important. It doesn’t matter how God chooses to put you into our lives. If one day it is God’s will for us to meet, I hope you will know that you are already loved. You are already wanted. So very much. 

I don’t know when or how or if, but today, I think of you and think of how much I look forward to being your mommy…perhaps someday.

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scI met him just before we walked down the aisle together. Afterward, he remembered feeling my hand shake and my heart pound as we walked down the aisle, and I remembered that he wasn’t ashamed to cry at his brother’s wedding.

I little dreamed that life would turn our two paths into one, or that we’d walk down Lover’s Lane, hand in hand. But we did, and when he asked me to spend the rest of my life with him, I said yes.

 

That first day we met, I never dreamed we’d be walking down another aisle, pledging to stick out this unpredictable adventure called life and set out together on our own happily ever after

That was three years ago now. I still feel butterflies when he says my name, when he takes my hand. I miss him when he’s at work; everything is so much better when we’re together. He is my best friend. More now than ever before.

Oh, it hasn’t all been smooth sailing. Every life is going to have bumps along the way. But I’m thankful that it is him and me. I’m glad that when God wrote our stories, He decided that we were better together than apart.

I’m just glad that he + I= together.

written for five minute friday

 

Just Miss Shayla Marie and I giving their puppies some snuggles. <3

I love this tiny girl. So blessed to be her auntie.

It has been beautiful. <3

He Gives back.

 

For each mommy who has loved a tiny babe that they never got the chance to hold, for those who have silently grieved for a child that no one else knew, for those who have said good bye to a baby love much too soon, this is for you. You are on my heart, in my thoughts and my prayers today and always.

 

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“Meeting you was fate” ….. the very beginning

 

silverslipperI call them my Cinderella Slippers, because I wore them on the day that I met my Prince Charming, that cute guy with the slow smile who walked me down the aisle in the wedding of my childhood best friend and one of his brothers.

I suppose every girl has dreams of the day that she meets the man who will sweep her off her feet and carry her away into happily ever after. I hadn’t thought a lot about mine, but I definitely didn’t arrive at the wedding in my sparkling silver and glass-looking sandals and pretty dress expecting to fall in love. And I didn’t fall in love. Not that day.

I nervously walked down that aisle, more concerned about not tripping over my 3 inch spikes on their maiden voyage (and my first attempt at anything more dramatic than a itsy bitsy wedge for a heel) in front of everyone than thinking about love or my escort, as handsome as he may have been, and never dreamed for a moment that I ever would fall in love with this country boy who wore boots and a cowboy hat and who had a contagious laugh and who I couldn’t help but think of as a friend.

Yes, I saw him, but I wasn’t looking for Prince Charming or anyone else. After all, the weight of recent painful but necessary decisions were heavy on my heart and love felt as if it was a faded dream, one I wasn’t ready to dream again for a long while yet, if ever. 

Perhaps my head was too wrapped up in conflicting emotions and focused on silly heels that sunk into the grass and tried to trip me constantly to really think much about this guy, but in a way it was like we had always been friends, like our hearts were kindred spirits that needed no introduction, and that day was a good day. We celebrated the love of two people close to us, we co-planned a car-jacking and decorated the formerly “hidden” getaway car with whatever we could get our hands on. We laughed at everything that tried to go wrong, we both cried when they said their vows, we enjoyed the moments with the bride and groom, and parted as new friends when the day was done.

But when he drove away, and I went back home to work again, I thought little of the country boy or his smile, except when I saw my sparkling slippers sitting in the corner of my closet or the pictures that brought back memories of that wedding day.

I wasn’t missing a shoe, after all, and I didn’t know that in the midst of confusion and pain, a fairy tale of a love story was being written. But it was, and while we went back to living our ordinary lives, both trusting our future to the great Author of  the best kind of Love Stories, He was working out the details and beginning to fill the pages in the chapters that lead up to falling in Love. 

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June 17, 2007

I met him  just minutes before we walked down that aisle together, this man that I married. We were young, and it was a happy day, but I didn’t love him then. The truth is, I was more focused on not tottering or tripping while wearing my sparkling silver and glass looking sandals (with three inch spike heels—and I’d never worn heels before that morning) down the aisle than anything else.

We had fun that day; My childhood best friend was to marry his older brother. And, Best Man and Maid of Honor, we were making it special for the two people we loved. We parted as friends, and there was nothing more there but happy memories centering on the couple who began their life together that day.

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(Oh, and aren’t they the cutest couple?)

But, “Once in awhile, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale.”  And this was the beginning of ours.

 

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So, Happy fourth anniversary to the two love birds who made our paths cross. Thanks for being a part of our fairy tale story.

And three years late I’m working on our courtship story, simplified because there are too many details. Look for it soon!

 

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A happy marriage has in it all the pleasures of a friendship, all the enjoyments of sense and reason, and indeed, all the sweets of life.

~ Joseph Addison

From the first day I loved you until now, being your best friend has been the happiest part of my life, and makes being your wife the most beautiful thing I’ve ever been. Thank you for making my life so sweet.

Two years ago, on March 15, in a little white church not far from the banks of the river that divides Washington from Idaho, I married him. He was my best friend then, and now he is my best friend and so much more than I could have hoped or dreamed for.

Life has had its bumps, and living isn’t always easy, yet there is not a moment of the life and the love that we’ve shared that I regret having lived, because we’ve lived it together.

I’m so thankful for these two years, for the love He has blessed us with, and for all these moments, all these blessings, all these opportunities to learn and to grow and to share and to live, just live.

I pray that God will grant us with many more years of livin’ on love. Together.

Tom T. Hall’s song, I Love…, has me smiling this week and reminds me of how many endless little things that I love about life, too.

I love sunshine in the morning, the air after rain, and sparkles of the morning dew.

I love cozy knitted blankets, tall fuzzy socks and catkins by the lake.

I love barefeet and grass, little people’s  funny faces and pineapple juice and songs that make me smile.

I love first days of spring, and first snow falls and the way that smiles are contagious.

I love hand written mail, packages of books and stamps.

I love laughing over everything and crying over happy things and smiles.

I love good news and good days and a good hot meal at night and fresh grown sprouts.

I love water when I’m hot and tea when I’m cold and cookies just because.

What do you love today?